Ramblings : 27/11/2017

“When a shepherd turns into a predator,
that’s when the flock must learn to defend themselves.”
– A caller on 91.9 FM Indigo Goa

During my drives to and from office, I always have my FM tuned into 91.9 Indigo FM, Goa. Every morning, RJ Ayesha discusses some issues that are faced by the people of Goa or issues that are common all around the world. Most of the days, I am made aware of things because of her show. I’m grateful for that! Gives me something to ponder on.
Like for example, today the topic was – Goa to be made a coal hub and the nationalization of her rivers. Six villages which include my own have opposed both the agendas.Β One caller to the FM made the above quote or at least a gist of it, and its meaning was really thought provoking.

Neither is this in anyway connected to the above topic nor would I ever get involved in these political debates, because of the amount of grief and headaches it would cause but its surprising – the amount of difference in thinking between people of a state who have grown up along with each other putting aside the fact that their religions differ. But, religion always seems to trump any rational thinking.

We really need to stop ignorance, blind faith, denial and assumptions run our life and decisions, if we ever really want any positive change in any part of our life, be it – personal, public or political.

Which is obviously going to be difficult.


Decisions (Wedding edition)

Decisions decisions. Let me clear a doubt. Not my wedding decision. 

The scene: My aunt and uncle brought me along to a wedding reception. I don’t know the couple, have never seen them before in my life but yes I have shamelessly hogged on their wedding lunch. The decision now is:

Do I go ahead and run up the stairs to wish a couple who wouldn’t even know I existed before that particular moment and risk being added into their photo album as “that” girl who both can’t recognize. 


Do I wait below the stage and look as my aunt and uncle wish the couple, while I cheekily click their photo, when I know that I have gulped down a plate of free food and 2 scoops of vanilla ice cream without even bothering to wish the couple who financed the whole thing.

Worth It !

The best part of trying hard to change something in your life is when you get a positive comment from a dear friend.

As I mentioned in my earlier post, I am currently trying to lose some kilos from my overweight body by controlling my eating habits while increasing my exercises which mainly includes cardio – walking/running on the treadmill, or the occasional walks on our beaches.

Yeah, I have cheated a lot on my ‘diet’, by allowing a few lot indulgences but as I am sure I will not be following this controlled ‘diet’ forever, I am keeping myself open to eat anything my heart tummy desires. Then, there are days when I don’t want to even enter a gym or get out of bed during weekends, the ‘gym-break’ days. πŸ˜πŸ˜‰Those days include the days when my legs are ready to fall off my body when I think about the treadmill. 😁😜

I know I have made a difference to myself and am very proud of my effort till now, but what makes it all the more worth it, is when someone notices. 😊

Burger Craze! <3

Nothing can describe the joy of biting into a juicy,
sauced-up burger,
munching on it slowly,
relishing the tangy taste of the ketchup,
the crunch of the veggies,
the delicious oh-so-yummy burger patty;
and soon after swallowing,
you go in for more,
and more,
till it’s all gone! 😦

Ramblings: (02/10/2017)

Just wanted to summarize the month – October.

  • I was working on a functionality for around 2-3 months having taken prior approval. The changes were then committed and pushed to the live site at the end of September with the assumption that every one was on the same page on what the new functionality would be doing.
    But nope! First week of October, I get a call from a sheepish voice saying –
    Carol, Haresh doesn’t approve of the changes. I had shown him the changes and he approved but now he denies it.
    Well, guess what? I’m back on square one!
  • Β I started a customized diet as in the last 2 years I have been lax with my eating habits, which resulted in me gaining more than required weight. So, 80% of last month had me controlling my diet and exercising regularly.
    End Result: Till date I have lost 2-3 kilos (depending on the weighing machine I use). πŸ˜‰
    It is a positive result according to me, as losing a little at a time is 100 times better than starving myself, dying at the gym and losing it.
  • We hosted our friend’s bachelorette/spinster party. She is getting married in December and just to give her a month to take care of the preparations without issue we planned it during October’s last week. Indian weddings are crazy (being polite here). It made me realize I am naive (at least more than normal, normal being the average of the levels of naivety of the attendees of the party).
  • I managed to get pissed off at a friend during the planning of the above mentioned party.
    (One day before the party. One Day Before!)
    I did the one thing no one would ever think possible of me. The thing is when I get angry/pissed off, I stay away from the person at whom I am projecting my anger at and I get very, very quiet. That’s my usual reaction to anger.
    Because no one; NO One needs to see me when I totally lose my temper.
    I become a totally different person. I know it and my way of saving people from that is to stay away.
    But, that didn’t/couldn’t happen and I ended up screaming virtually at a person who didn’t deserve it. Time will tell if those wounds will heal.
  • My aunt who I stay with got admitted to the hospital because of an unexpected visitor.
    Not what you are thinking of πŸ˜€
    A kidney stone !!!!! |-(
    It got her all weak and started a whole series of politics within her family about who should handle her expenses.
    Isn’t Aunty’s life more Important than Rs. 20k ?
    Thankfully, she was discharged today after the stone bid adieu and disappeared on it’s own. πŸ˜€

Anyway today is All Souls Day !
During the mass at the cemetery, couldn’t help getting a little teary eyed looking at my uncle’s grave and thinking about my grandmother – who will always be my first favorite person – she was strict, but loved me nonetheless. Wish I had, had more time to be with her. It’s true that the best people are taken away first. Uncle (I call him Mama) would have knocked his sons heads if he knew what they were arguing about.
They say the souls of our relatives visit us today so the tradition is to cook feast food to celebrate their visit.

Series: Vikings & Outlander

Last month, I started watching two popular series – Vikings & Outlander.

VIKINGS (Seasons 1 – 4)
IMDB Rating: 8.6/10

(L-R) Rollo Lothbrok, Ragnar Lothbrok and Lagertha Lothbrok

The series is based on the life of a Viking – King Ragnar Lothbrok; his rise to fame, his many conquests/failures and sons. During his lifetime he is married twice, defeats armies in at least 2-3 battles in foreign lands, rises from a mere farmer to a King and has 5 sons, who grow up to be even more famous.Β 

Season 5 releasing November 2017.Β 

OUTLANDER (Seasons 1 – 2)
IMDB Rating: 8.5/10

(L-R) The hand is Frank Randall. Claire Beauchamp Randall Fraser. James (Jamie) Fraser

The series is based on a novel series by Diana Gabaldon. It’s about an army nurse – Claire Beauchamp Randall, from the 1940s, who is magically transported to the 1700s – at the start of a Scottish uprising.

Season 3 currently being released.

Anyone missing Game of Thrones should definitely watch these two series.
Though I can’t promise the series contains the same amount of betrayal and treachery, they make up in story and action. and romance. and friendship.

Ramblings: (29/09/2017)

I spend half an evening carefully typing out a post on my computer. Trying to make it witty and funny, adding in some pictures, smileys and such. 😊

I save the post. 😊

The WP app on my mobile just decides to overwrite the whole post with nothing but what I started the evening with! 😱😨

Maybe a validation needs to be added so that the only the latest version of a post gets written over all earlier versions. 😐

Tragedies of technology. 😠


Today morning right after breakfast:

Mom: Dress up Carol.

I : Why? Where are we going ?

Mom: Going to Lulu (a nearby Hypermarket)

I: For what?

Mom: Have to buy something.

Being the ever compliant daughter that I am, I go ahead, dress up and wait; till dad comes to pick us.

Dad(with a smirk): Why are you dressed ?

I: Mummy told me to dress up. What happened ?

Dad (mutters something about me getting married)

I (realising why Mummy was being so cryptic): Mummmmyyyyyyy!!!!!!

Indian parents have this urge to send their daughters into her husband’s arms laden in gold. 

Being someone who can’t bear too much of gold; or any gold, my own parents have to force me to try the jewellery. I can’t refuse the gold too, as I would only be giving cause for my parents to be talked about.

The scene at the jewellers:

Mom: Which design you liked?

I: Buy anything you like Mummy. I’m going to be wearing it once in a while anyway.

Mom: Carol, don’t say like that. Choose which design you like.

And the conversation went back and forth till both Mummy and Daddy agreed on 2 different patterns.

What worries me more is the fact that I am and always was single. Why would my parents even bother buying gold at such an early point is beyond me. 

It’s almost like wishful thinking.

Ramblings: 20/09/2017

I will be leaving to visit Mom and Dad the day after tomorrow, i.e. Friday and I can’t help being very, very excited! 

Yes, I am excited to meet Mom and Dad but more than that I just want to leave this place, these daily routines and surroundings for sometime. Just get away from here before I burst out in frustration. Frustration with work, life in general and people. To put it in simple terms, some people don’t really make sense. 😐

This kind of break gives me a chance to calm down, get a hold of my emotions and come back cool, with a fresh perspective.

The fact that no one from work will be able to contact me and “kindly” force me to work from home; that too is a pro.

Mummy Daddy here I come ! πŸ˜πŸ’ƒ

Book Review: The Girl on a Train – Paula Hawkins

The Girl On The Train (Paula Hawkins)


Rachel is an alcoholic who travels daily to and from work on trains. During her daily travels, she takes interest in the lives of the people who stay in the houses near the train tracks. 

One day she witnesses something that shakes her to her core and which could be a clue to a missing person’s investigation.


Warning – There could be spoilers ahead.

The author starts the book in the mind of the protagonist, Rachel and you can actually sympathise with her situation. The frustration of going to work in the morning and tiredness of going home after a day’s work. She finds solace in imagining the lives of the people living in their perfect homes. Perfect people in perfect semi-Victorian homes. This includes the occasional gin and tonic. 

Then slowly as we move ahead, the author reveals the events that occur on a particular Saturday, the night after Rachel gets badly drunk. So drunk that she has a blackout, no memory at all about the whole night. The night that a person goes missing. A person who she thought had the most perfect life.

We are given a look into the minds of three women – Rachel, Meghan and Anna. A mother who accidently killed her daughter, a barren woman and a new mother. A divorcee, a wife who hated being a housewife and a doting wife. Three different characters whose paths in life are drawn together by one common factor.

I read the book in almost a day; 304 pages in a day; which has got to be a new record for me. The book is a page-turner. 

The genre – Psychological Thriller – is not a new one for me; but I realise now that I needed such a book to awake the napping bookworm in me.

Rating: 4/5 – Though I loved the twists and the suspense, there were times I felt I couldn’t keep up.