Just wanted to summarize the month – October.
- I was working on a functionality for around 2-3 months having taken prior approval. The changes were then committed and pushed to the live site at the end of September with the assumption that every one was on the same page on what the new functionality would be doing.
But nope! First week of October, I get a call from a sheepish voice saying –
‘Carol, Haresh doesn’t approve of the changes. I had shown him the changes and he approved but now he denies it.‘
Well, guess what? I’m back on square one!
- I started a customized diet as in the last 2 years I have been lax with my eating habits, which resulted in me gaining more than required weight. So, 80% of last month had me controlling my diet and exercising regularly.
End Result: Till date I have lost 2-3 kilos (depending on the weighing machine I use). 😉
It is a positive result according to me, as losing a little at a time is 100 times better than starving myself, dying at the gym and losing it.
- We hosted our friend’s bachelorette/spinster party. She is getting married in December and just to give her a month to take care of the preparations without issue we planned it during October’s last week. Indian weddings are crazy (being polite here). It made me realize I am naive (at least more than normal, normal being the average of the levels of naivety of the attendees of the party).
- I managed to get pissed off at a friend during the planning of the above mentioned party.
(One day before the party. One Day Before!)
I did the one thing no one would ever think possible of me. The thing is when I get angry/pissed off, I stay away from the person at whom I am projecting my anger at and I get very, very quiet. That’s my usual reaction to anger.
Because no one; NO One needs to see me when I totally lose my temper.
I become a totally different person. I know it and my way of saving people from that is to stay away.
But, that didn’t/couldn’t happen and I ended up screaming virtually at a person who didn’t deserve it. Time will tell if those wounds will heal.
- My aunt who I stay with got admitted to the hospital because of an unexpected visitor.
Not what you are thinking of 😀
A kidney stone !!!!! |-(
It got her all weak and started a whole series of politics within her family about who should handle her expenses.
Isn’t Aunty’s life more Important than Rs. 20k ?
Thankfully, she was discharged today after the stone bid adieu and disappeared on it’s own. 😀
Anyway today is All Souls Day !
During the mass at the cemetery, couldn’t help getting a little teary eyed looking at my uncle’s grave and thinking about my grandmother – who will always be my first favorite person – she was strict, but loved me nonetheless. Wish I had, had more time to be with her. It’s true that the best people are taken away first. Uncle (I call him Mama) would have knocked his sons heads if he knew what they were arguing about.
They say the souls of our relatives visit us today so the tradition is to cook feast food to celebrate their visit.
I spend half an evening carefully typing out a post on my computer. Trying to make it witty and funny, adding in some pictures, smileys and such. 😊
I save the post. 😊
The WP app on my mobile just decides to overwrite the whole post with nothing but what I started the evening with! 😱😨
Maybe a validation needs to be added so that the only the latest version of a post gets written over all earlier versions. 😐
Tragedies of technology. 😠
I will be leaving to visit Mom and Dad the day after tomorrow, i.e. Friday and I can’t help being very, very excited!
Yes, I am excited to meet Mom and Dad but more than that I just want to leave this place, these daily routines and surroundings for sometime. Just get away from here before I burst out in frustration. Frustration with work, life in general and people. To put it in simple terms, some people don’t really make sense. 😐
This kind of break gives me a chance to calm down, get a hold of my emotions and come back cool, with a fresh perspective.
The fact that no one from work will be able to contact me and “kindly” force me to work from home; that too is a pro.
Mummy Daddy here I come ! 😁💃
I see someone walking towards me. Someone who makes me give a second thought whether to greet. So I smile and mouth out a ‘hi’. But, the person just gives back an awkward smile which obviously makes me regret wasting my energy.
In my brave effort to hold onto a little of my ego, I go ahead and try entering my office room but end up down right slamming into the door because obviously automatic doors like to irritate the hell outta me.
That too in front of the person I shouldn’t have bothered greeting.
Last week was a pain. A royal pain. Such a pain that I was regretting the fact that today came so fast. Today being a Monday. The start of our “work” week in India. Even though some people worked through the weekend too. cough
This week is beginning to look like it’s going to rival last week. But, the thing that always makes things better is when someone actually is forthcoming with their appreciation for your work.
After working with people for so long who just gave work without any expectation; my current teammates are a breath of fresh air? Just people who make me give my best.
Best end to a Monday workday is someone saying:
Take good rest! You are doing a good job! 😊
You know how a small para just makes total sense?
Well, regarding the one below, it was perfect.
Knowing someone who has been around since your childhood days, but still not knowing that person. Not really having that personal connection.
Like, he could be my father’s friend’s mother’s brother’s grandson. Meeting at parties or gatherings. Knowing what the other is officially doing in life. In developers terminology, being given the protected view into their life. Not totally private, not totally public.
Not knowing how to become friends, how to break into that private bubble, and know more than where they work. Learn what they want in life. Learn how they handle life so like mine. Learn what makes them smile, chuckle or just be sad.
It’s weird being an introvert but still wanting to get to know people other than those in my tight circle of friends and family.
What is that innate need to be dependent on someone? I am sure it is part of being human, but we always have that need to be around someone when doing something new or just doing something. The need to discuss whatever we have planned in the near future.
Watching a movie alone, it makes sense, you get to watch with your total undivided attention; but watching a movie with a friend! Now that would include jokes, laughs, discussions about the characters and mimicry.
The same goes with exercising, eating meals, dancing, working. (Except for maybe going to the washroom) 😀
The hardest part is when you are dependent on a singular person or two. Breaking away or trying anything alone makes it all the more difficult.
So, I started reading a book. A book that I randomly chose; like one minute I am blankly checking out tops on an online shopping site and ting! I want to read this book; so I check out some of its reviews, and my interest peaks.
I expect the usual drama, the usual oh-so-pretty, oh-so-talented and oh-so-attractive female protagonist and her usual rugged, handsome, charming male lover.
I don’t realise when I got lost in its world. In the faerie realm, I must add the adjective – beautiful faerie realm. Not usually being a person who loves fantasy, I like to focus on reality and would gladly skip the parts that the author has taken pains to describe in detail – a magical something.
Not this book.
I got totally lost in its world. Totally captured by its beauty, the ensuing drama between the characters. Captured just like a book is supposed to capture a reader.
The times that I have to take a break from reading gives me the Avatar kind of feel. My real world feels fake, and the world conjured in my mind by the author seems to be the real one. Full of magic and love. Beautiful colors and dark corridors.
I still have yet to complete it and find out who wins.😈
Psst… The book’s name is A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas.
Yes, apparently a YA book.
Those mornings when I wake up and a random song starts playing my mind, and it manages to be the only song I hum all day long; only song I listen to all day. Those are my best days. You can say or do anything to me. I will reply or ignore you while humming my song. 😉
Today I woke up with “Baby, you’re all that I want, when you’re lying here in my arms. Can’t find it hard to believe we are in heaven!”. Yeah, yeah I messed up the lyrics. I do that, put in my own words, not caring if they make sense or not. 😁😅
I’ll be singing on the stairs up, the stairs down, while having lunch, while coding, basically everytime, anywhere. 😁
So, today is dedicated to Bryan Adams – Heaven and the Cascada cover.