Ramblings: 21/01/2018

I was going to write this post describing how I felt about loving and growing old with a person for a major part of your life, and then suddenly the person just dying. There’s no other way to say it. Your one person who was your everything is dead. I can’t imagine the pain people feel. I personally cannot bear when a close relation passes. But, this would be your person! My question was going to be – Why go through all that? Why have your own person ? When we know people are fragile.

But, then I realized the countless people who would shout out the many pros of the years having a person to love, share moments, grow together, raise kids.

Life is truly funny. It gives and takes.


Year 2017

It’s a little late for this post but the usual holiday laziness kept me busy and made me postpone writing this post. 😁

This post is going to be the countdown of my most favorite memories of 2017. I may be the only person who would read it countless times in the years to come, but the smile on my future self is worth the long post.  😊


The year started with the usual new year (2017) midnight mass with my family. Then back in Goa, the ever awaited event at office – Pulse started and it was amazing. The fact that I was off a full-fledged project was a big bonus for me.
Organizing the quiz event and the Kala Chasma/Zingat dance need a big mention! @Thwe, we kinda rocked it 😁😜
Yeah, I also managed to keep my kala chasma (sunglasses) on even for the Zingat song, which made friends who noticed laugh at the idiot that I am! 😁


That’s Twinie and me with the medal(s) we won during the Sports day – the one day I deem myself sporty enough to stand around in the sun the whole day getting tanned. 😜

I got my hair highlighted with purple color the second time (which was hardly visible on my dark curls). This time, Thwe gave me company and got the ends of her tresses colored red. Though I was kinda unsatisfied with the end product, during the next few months the fading color perfectly complimented my previously highlighted hair.

This is the month I got to work on something that actually had me interested in coding, before getting myself stuck in something I truly came to hate.


My favorite month right after none. ❤

Owing to the fact that I would be completing my quarter life that month, I decided to fulfill some of my wishes.

So, on the 15th I had a tattoo imprinted on my hand (didn’t want to disturb the tattoo artist on 14th 😉 ) and got my ears pierced on the 19th.

I had my cousin – Joli accompany me for the tattoo and a friend – Pinky for the ear piercing (was a tad tipsy that day). I kinda freaked out when a baby started crying at the top of her lungs when her ears were pierced and I ended up pulling the hands of the guy piercing my ears, until Pinky gave me a slight warning. 😂

IMG-20170219-WA0024On the 20th (yes, the day after I got my ears pierced) was my friends – Aksh’s engagement in Karwar. All dressed up we – Thwe, Twinie, Ruddh and I travelled the 3 hours to the occasion.

Then came the 21st !! My birthday !! As the years go by, my excitement for this particular day decreases more. Like mehh cake, mehhh blow candles, But on one side it hurt (a liiiiitle) to have not cut a single cake – definitely a first. But mehhh life goes on. 😈

The festivities continued with Pinky’s birthday which we celebrated at a nearby restaurant – Ben & Sands and then a visit to the beach the same night.

We helped in organizing the Cyber Champs event (the photo with the group all in black).
I painted a abstract painting for my cousin. Just got the feeling to paint something and that’s exactly what I did! My first solo canvas painting :D.


This month was Bhi’s birthday.

My godchild is born ! She was born on the 8th of March, so currently she is 10 months young, waddling along holding her dad’s hand, pointing at everything and trying out her vocal chords. I am not going to be adding any photos of her here any time coz you know they say bhuri nazar and all, and I really don’t want to risk it!


April brought along many celebrations.

We started the month with Aksh’s Bach. The Pune girls came for the celebration, which made it perfect from the beginning. We had lunch, massage session, paintball, ross omelet stop and then finally the dinner. To say we had fun would be a really bad understatement. 😂

The next day, I got to spend the day with Niee and Shub who were supposed to leave that evening. Shub went with her college friends. Niee got her second tattoo and then we went to try out the famous Jess’s Fish Thali (famous in our friend circle at least).

Then on the 21st was Nesh’s wedding !!! Didn’t get involved much in his wedding keeping in mind that he’s a good friend. Come to think of it – guess there’s a very fine line between being friends as colleagues and being friends.


Genius’s birthday!

Aksh’s wedding and reception ! 14th and 20th were respectively the two occasions and we enjoyed a lot!

Pearl’s baptism: it was my Godchilds baptism on the 21st. The day I became officially a Godparent. 😁 Yeah, every time I held her she screamed her lungs out, but who knows she may like me later? :S


Hmm… June, June, June, don’t remember anything important during this month.

Thwe’s nephews birthday, where we hogged and played games. 😀

I guess we started our swimming lessons this month. We being – Bhi and I. We “learned” to freestyle, and that’s it. Apparently we didn’t have the strength to even try out the other strokes, like the butterfly stroke which made us look more like frogs. 😀

I went to visit mom, dad this month. Had the most calm, worry-free weekend.


Aksh’s birthday

Preparation for mom dad’s arrival: mummy daddy were arriving on the 1st of August, which meant I had to make the house spic and span before that. Which meant double checking for dust bunnies, sweeping and mopping every corner of the house. Amazing workout!


mom dad are here ! Mummy, Daddy and my brother reached as expected on the 1st and as I had planned I spent almost the whole month working from home. Like some researchers say – 21 days are more than enough to get used to anything. Getting used to being around family is something that takes less than 21 days. Especially missed were my brother’s snide remarks on everything. When they left it just made me feel out of place here.


Yeah, I spent most of September moping around, missing my family. Wish there was a better way to be with family without any restrictions like would I get a job, would it give good pay, etc. Being away from family for a long time, makes you kind of realize what you are missing.

At the end of the month – had to travel to visit mom dad for some official work and the weekend was free of the usual debates, which made it even more better.


Start of diet. I made a vow when I was with mummy that I would start a diet once I was back in Goa, and that’s exactly what I did. Dal Chapatti, Steamed veggies and fish, lots of water and fruits, and porridge!!! Included was a minimum of 30mins on the treadmill.

Planning for spinsters party. Yeah we planned for Pinky’s spinsters party.

Yada. Yada. Yada.


Continued diet.

Pune !!! After years of postponing this trip, I actually went ahead with it this time! And excluding the few necessary issues, we had the best time ! Bestest best time !! Hard Rock Cafe !! ❤ Thwe, if you are still reading: whenever however we should go again !!!! 😁😍

Thwe’s birthday!

Prep for sangeet, which included practising our dance 😂 staying awake for hours late at night! That too on workdays, ending up in me roaming around like a zombie at office.


Genius and Pinky’s sangeet and wedding!!

This month was made up of dressing up and going for so many weddings !!! 7 weddings is an all time record for me.

Work was bad but managed it though.

Jazz’s last day 😦

Then at last peace, when I left Goa on the 19th to celebrate the holiday season with Mummy Daddy.

Christmas and New Year was as usual the same with family. Happy and comforting. 😊 just being around family is more than enough during these occasions.

THE END – Year 2018 *-)

I thought of adding a lot of photos and adding some color to this but that’s lots of photos to upload and insert so, this is the best I can do.

Ramblings: 19/12/2017

One of my worst experiences, being a complete introvert, is when I’m not in any mood to interact but I’m stuck in a public place. I either get rude or completely ignore people which would qualify as being one and the same ?

Like 4 o’clock in the morning at the airport. Nope I’m not talking, not even gesturing. 

It’s especially bad when a person sits next to or opposite you and desperately tries to gain your eye contact and you try your best not to. Which ends up making me look all kinds of crazy. Staring at the floor, at the pizza, at the coffee, anywhere but the person.

Yeah, I tend to be anti-social at times but it’s 4 in the morning !

Ramblings: 08/12/2017

You know how sometimes you get the feeling like it wouldn’t make a difference if you did a certain thing? but you go ahead, and it actually doesn’t make any difference?
Like yesterday I was invited for a get-together by my aunt but she didn’t seem to care when I said that I might not be able to make it. Feeling guilty later, I rush to their place to be there for the get-together, after work. But, she didn’t really seem to care that I came.
First of all, why invite someone you don’t want to meet? The person would have taken the trouble to come all the way only to be met by a cold shoulder. (Please don’t imagine a cold shoulder top) 😀
Secondly, If this ever happens to you. Don’t. Give. A. Damn. You did what you felt is right. You know what’s going on in your life. What others have against you is their business not yours. At the end of the day, you will have to justify your actions to your conscience. You matter more than anyone else. However close you are to them.
Yeah, maybe after some days (or weeks/years), you should call them up or meet them and talk about the issue. 😀 😉

Ramblings: 3/12/2017

I used to have this fear of talking to new people earlier. Wondering what they would think of me, whether they would approve the way I talk, walk, laugh or even breathe. 

But, today I realised how far I have come from that shy kid. How much I have grown?

Today after my friends function, I had to work with his friends who I never met before on a certain project. I can’t really pinpoint what it was exactly, it could have been their cool (I mean crazy) jokes, or the fact that they laughed at mine and joined in when I laughed or that they were actually replying to what I had to say, but they somehow got me feeling so comfortable around them.

@thwe: you know how I get when I’m dead tired. 😁 Yeah, let’s just say I. Talk. Too. Much.

But, these guys equally joined in my banter, and we all had a jolly good time. Cracking jokes, while working on the job at hand. And obviously we did an amazing job! 😎❤

oh, and I guess today was the first time I saw a guy actually find a broom and sweep the floor without anyone asking him to. What a sweet, thoughtful guy! Like wow! Guys like that exist! P.s. I’m so in awe coz I wouldn’t bother taking the effort.

I love the new me, and I especially love open-minded, sweet and totally thoughtful people.

Ramblings : 27/11/2017

“When a shepherd turns into a predator,
that’s when the flock must learn to defend themselves.”
– A caller on 91.9 FM Indigo Goa

During my drives to and from office, I always have my FM tuned into 91.9 Indigo FM, Goa. Every morning, RJ Ayesha discusses some issues that are faced by the people of Goa or issues that are common all around the world. Most of the days, I am made aware of things because of her show. I’m grateful for that! Gives me something to ponder on.
Like for example, today the topic was – Goa to be made a coal hub and the nationalization of her rivers. Six villages which include my own have opposed both the agendas. One caller to the FM made the above quote or at least a gist of it, and its meaning was really thought provoking.

Neither is this in anyway connected to the above topic nor would I ever get involved in these political debates, because of the amount of grief and headaches it would cause but its surprising – the amount of difference in thinking between people of a state who have grown up along with each other putting aside the fact that their religions differ. But, religion always seems to trump any rational thinking.

We really need to stop ignorance, blind faith, denial and assumptions run our life and decisions, if we ever really want any positive change in any part of our life, be it – personal, public or political.

Which is obviously going to be difficult.

Ramblings: (02/10/2017)

Just wanted to summarize the month – October.

  • I was working on a functionality for around 2-3 months having taken prior approval. The changes were then committed and pushed to the live site at the end of September with the assumption that every one was on the same page on what the new functionality would be doing.
    But nope! First week of October, I get a call from a sheepish voice saying –
    Carol, Haresh doesn’t approve of the changes. I had shown him the changes and he approved but now he denies it.
    Well, guess what? I’m back on square one!
  •  I started a customized diet as in the last 2 years I have been lax with my eating habits, which resulted in me gaining more than required weight. So, 80% of last month had me controlling my diet and exercising regularly.
    End Result: Till date I have lost 2-3 kilos (depending on the weighing machine I use). 😉
    It is a positive result according to me, as losing a little at a time is 100 times better than starving myself, dying at the gym and losing it.
  • We hosted our friend’s bachelorette/spinster party. She is getting married in December and just to give her a month to take care of the preparations without issue we planned it during October’s last week. Indian weddings are crazy (being polite here). It made me realize I am naive (at least more than normal, normal being the average of the levels of naivety of the attendees of the party).
  • I managed to get pissed off at a friend during the planning of the above mentioned party.
    (One day before the party. One Day Before!)
    I did the one thing no one would ever think possible of me. The thing is when I get angry/pissed off, I stay away from the person at whom I am projecting my anger at and I get very, very quiet. That’s my usual reaction to anger.
    Because no one; NO One needs to see me when I totally lose my temper.
    I become a totally different person. I know it and my way of saving people from that is to stay away.
    But, that didn’t/couldn’t happen and I ended up screaming virtually at a person who didn’t deserve it. Time will tell if those wounds will heal.
  • My aunt who I stay with got admitted to the hospital because of an unexpected visitor.
    Not what you are thinking of 😀
    A kidney stone !!!!! |-(
    It got her all weak and started a whole series of politics within her family about who should handle her expenses.
    Isn’t Aunty’s life more Important than Rs. 20k ?
    Thankfully, she was discharged today after the stone bid adieu and disappeared on it’s own. 😀

Anyway today is All Souls Day !
During the mass at the cemetery, couldn’t help getting a little teary eyed looking at my uncle’s grave and thinking about my grandmother – who will always be my first favorite person – she was strict, but loved me nonetheless. Wish I had, had more time to be with her. It’s true that the best people are taken away first. Uncle (I call him Mama) would have knocked his sons heads if he knew what they were arguing about.
They say the souls of our relatives visit us today so the tradition is to cook feast food to celebrate their visit.

Ramblings: (29/09/2017)

I spend half an evening carefully typing out a post on my computer. Trying to make it witty and funny, adding in some pictures, smileys and such. 😊

I save the post. 😊

The WP app on my mobile just decides to overwrite the whole post with nothing but what I started the evening with! 😱😨

Maybe a validation needs to be added so that the only the latest version of a post gets written over all earlier versions. 😐

Tragedies of technology. 😠

Ramblings: 20/09/2017

I will be leaving to visit Mom and Dad the day after tomorrow, i.e. Friday and I can’t help being very, very excited! 

Yes, I am excited to meet Mom and Dad but more than that I just want to leave this place, these daily routines and surroundings for sometime. Just get away from here before I burst out in frustration. Frustration with work, life in general and people. To put it in simple terms, some people don’t really make sense. 😐

This kind of break gives me a chance to calm down, get a hold of my emotions and come back cool, with a fresh perspective.

The fact that no one from work will be able to contact me and “kindly” force me to work from home; that too is a pro.

Mummy Daddy here I come ! 😁💃

Ramblings: (22/07/2017)

I see someone walking towards me. Someone who makes me give a second thought whether to greet. So I smile and mouth out a ‘hi’. But, the person just gives back an awkward smile which obviously makes me regret wasting my energy.

In my brave effort to hold onto a little of my ego, I go ahead and try entering my office room but end up down right slamming into the door because obviously automatic doors like to irritate the hell outta me.

That too in front of the person I shouldn’t have bothered greeting.